Its not fair,i screamed.
I'm always envious of things/people around me.
I'm suppressed to pressure so much,i felt controlled.
I'm becoming smaller.
I couldn't joke,i can't even feel what i'm feeling.
Its not depressed nor happy,so mixed.
I wanted to escape to know that things aren't that bad
To keep the memory,to live to see less disappointments
To rely on people/things i can trust,to forget the anger within me.
I feel so fake, so restless, so uncared.
I feel that everyone is gone and i'm alone,
the one i rely on gives up on me so many times that i felt my insignificance.
Promises unheld, everyone's a fool.
Deception existed and the bridge towards trust has fallen.
We owed each other so much so that no amt of words can explained.
But yet the future is so far,time is without boundary.
Wake up my dear, the dream's over.