Today i finally said it. Really very disappointed since yesterday. Till this day, i know no matter what i do there is nothing to bring me to that point of time,the days whereby i smiled from my heart and know clearly there is only love for him. I came to know that i love and hate him at the same time. Things came about because we pressed each other too hard, although he already gives up slowly but i am still trying to be everything. I couldn't trust him without questioning and wanted to check on everything. I feel sad and disappointed and wanted to hug him and wants him to console me at the same time. What a joke. Perhaps this is what love is about,so confusing and forceless.Whenever he is happy,its not because of us but something else. I didn't feel happy because he is happy, how bizzare it is. I'm already numb. I chose to give up because i didn't want to fight alone, didn't want to feel hurt alone. I'm already weak enough to even think more. I wanted to end it peacefully and not quarell.

Let's be friends.

Regards, xingzhi